Ya this is my life motto..but just before one year it was like Live Love laugh only.being healthy or eating healthy was not even in my dreams.i was and am always a foodie.i don’ even know that name is correct.but let me tell u food is my one true love .I am the happiest when I am surrounded with food.but this love had cost me couple of kgs.not couple like lot more extra kgs..but as a loyal lover in a faithful relationship with food mostly junk I was ready to overlook all the dangers and problems awaiting for me due to this relationship…

I am a doctor and I am 27.i finished MBBS and I am about to join MD Anesthesiology in a reputed college in Mumbai and I am single.,which is having its own perks ,previlages and also problems.but i am happy about it .. I was and am always a happy go lucky person,carefree but at the same time anxious and petrified of exams ,results just like every medico..But I love my profession to death which gives me an opportunity to express myself.I am always an extrovert ,love to interact with people and understand them,which I am luckily enjoying through my profession. Med school is a place where you meet a bag of people be it friends ,roomamtes,batchmates, teachers, faculties,patients and their relatives extra extra..And each of these teaches you something as you move ahead in your journey of being a doctor.I think I also got the opportunity to meet people with lots of different characters , habbits, beliefs, identities,morals,religous and cultural backgrounds and was able to learn not just the craft but also the world.i had also seen people who are ambitious , workaholic,fun,caring,emotional .Med school carves you in such a way that you will be able to face the world with a different and mature approach. because the way a doctor deals with birth and death is the same,as it is our job to witness both with same anticipation ,fear and confidence.i always believe that,it is always happiness to witness a birth but it is also very important to comfort and console at the time of death. I think that is the most important and powerful beauty of this profession. I think my undergraution days helped me so much to become the person I am right now(for better and also for worse).I don’t know what destiny is going to plan for me ahead during postgraduation,which is about to start in 2 months.but I am ready for any challenges because this is what I want to do for the rest of my life.so I am just eagerly waiting for it.

So coming back to the reason for this kind of a topic and blog.As I was growing up I was always on the heavier side..and I didn’t bother about my weight or my growing curves through my teen days.but your college days were the time you would really understand what those extra pounds and curves really meant. undergraduation days were the time where you would make friends for your life ,make memories, understand the world and also getting exposed to the real world.you were out of the protective sheath created for you by your parents and your family.there you find friendships, relationships.you will have your own share of happiness and heartbreaks.i think I made my friends whom I can call best friends ,who was with me through the thick and thin. I am lucky enough to make atleast 6 of them,which is quite a number.So we as a bunch of friends were also foodie,travel and movie buffs,music lovers,gossip mongers .so I can go on and talk about my college life with this 6 friends continuously and I will be deviating from the original matter..

As I have already discussed,I was always in a serious and faithful relationship with food. I think that is my one true and sincere relationship I have had in all these years.i was and am truly madly genuinely in love with food.i can sing like this”all of me loves all of you”to food .me along with my friends were exposed and enjoyed all kinds of food like mess food, canteen food,street food ,food from restaurants (big and small),theatre,food from footpath, supermarket ,food from friend’s home and also your own home.cut to the chase among all these vareity I had my heart brain and my taste buds always preferred junk food,which was exactly shown on my body ,which was never a bother for me but always for others

Now this list of others include a very large section like your friends( except those six),batchmates,teachers, faculties,relatives,close family members and even random people (who u don’t even know).they were much interested in assessing my weight ,my BMI ,my waist hip ratio,my jeans size more than me.so here comes the time for me to address the elephant in the room ,that I have faced and fought all these years,that is ” body shaming”. and just like any other problem people try to overlook it and never try to give an importance to it. People don’t realise the seriousness of the matter unless it’s happening to you. I found it very interesting that for doing this to a person your educational qualification or your professional accomplishments or accademic and social skills or your life experience doesn’t count.its done by everyone irrespective of these factors.
I think I responded to this terrible thing called body shaming in a different way. I always used to make fat jokes about myself so that when the other person makes it ,it would hurt less..I don’t even remember how many times that people have asked me this question “where did you buy this dress?””is it possible for you get readymade dress?”.i was really confused during those times because whether they were asking me this question because whether they didn’t know that there is always a large section of 2XL and 3XL in every textile shops or they were asking me because it’s always fun to make cruel jokes. Also I have faced scenarios like travelling with you would be impossible as there would be no space if you sit.also the next and foremost important question I faced on a day to day basis was “what is your weight”?..I know all of you may have heard this saying “never ask a man his salary and a woman her weight”but that only mattered to people who are skinny not if you are overweight.I have read “The Diary Of Ann Frank “when I was in plus one and I remember one thing she wrote.her weight and her menstruation were the two secrets she got to keep it to herself..so your weight is your secret and you only have rights on it,unless you are consulting a doctor for any medical conditions. So my take is whatever size you are in or whatever your weight is it’s always your choice whether you want to share it with the world or not.

It’s always difficult to deal with body shaming.it will always destroy your self esteem,your confidence,your positive attitude.i think the way I dealt with it was also no different.i had lots of insecurities ,less self belief ,less morale..I once considered that being skinny is the only way to be beautiful and didn’t even realise they will also be facing lots of insecurities because of their weight or the way they looked.so to be “beautiful” in someone’s eyes i have tried every unhealthy and unhappy diets in my life,which eventually cost couple of more pounds .and also that made me a unhappy soul at that point of time atleast for a short period.I think I completely forgot the famous quote “beauty lies in the eyes of beholder”.my double chin,big ass and my 2XL dress doesn’t describe my beauty ,but still you find it as ugly and not find it beautiful then that is your problem as a beholder. I think people should understand the earth is having enough space to accommodate the fat,the fit,the not so fit,the skinny,the rich,the poor,the educated and uneducated.i think our eyes should see the souls and the heart of other people instead of their bodies and curves, then imagine how different will be the idea of beauty.the definition of beauty according to me is a person with pure heart,honesty, confidence and willing to work really hard on every single day.

Here I am still overweight according to all BMI charts and also holds little more fat percentage than a ideal woman( according to text books)..but couple not couple atleast 10 kg less than 2 years before..and from 2xL I shifted myself to large, sometimes medium ;but not always..and I think I have lost my double chin and my cheeks also became small size ( not much). I think people can now see my two big bat ears.I changed my attitude towards my body.i started listening to it and I try to hear and understand what my body wanted to say to me.but it was not because that somebody force me to do but because I started to understand and analyse what beauty means and what your body really wants from you.and I realised that our body always prefers us to be in a healthy life style.starting from the time and the way we get up in the morning to every single thing we eat to every step we walk to the time when you go to bed ,you can make changes and make our body realise that “I will look after you; because you are my one and only one priceless procession & I will fulfill each and every needs of you”. I finally started doing so,made change in every single thing that I had done before and came to notice the effects of those changes in my body.I understood one thing that “be healthy be happy.”if you are healthy you can be happy.And my happiness started because I started to change myself by taking small small steps.I started to walk but now I can run.i started with beginners workout in every app ,but now shifted myself to advanced workout. I was only able to do 10 seconds plank, but now can go for 45 seconds to 60 seconds.doing and loving shavasana only to doing sarvangasana..loving only choclate,icecreams,pastries and all other junks to loving oats,granola ,dal rice,vegetable juice,black tea,lemon tea and green tea without sugar…but still I love my food and I love it with all my heart..and I am still in faithful relationship with food.but just like that you have to be choosy while selecting a partner if you want your forever relationship,you also have to be very choosy while selecting your food if you want to be healthy forever..

I start to write this blog and address this issue beacuse i think it’s not just me out there.there are a lot of people like me who once once had their share of unpleasant memories but bounced back with a bang .and also there are people who couldn’t bounce back because they are stuck up..I want to tell those who are stuck up ,you are not alone..we all had been there.and it is difficult to make the first step towards self love but once you did start there won’t be any turning back .

Today I like my body whether it is with curves or without curves.I don’t want a bikkini body because my profession doesn’t deamand it.but I want a body for myself healthy enough to explore the world and say to the world that “being healthy defines your beauty.”and also I want people and world to understand that every person’s body is their choice.and also I want the people to know that if you judge a person according to the way they look it doesn’t defines him/her but defines who you are.today I am that person who still love her food but likes it more healthy .I am also that person who loves to do yoga ,hit the gym and learn Pilates ,not because I need to loose weight but to be happy and content with myself. So here I am,with this not so boring journey (hope so) of finding myself. I truly stands for Live Love Laugh Healthy.
“One day i decided that I was beautiful
So I carried out my life as if I am a beautiful girl”
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